sometimes life is not fair

When I realized that if life is so hard.
As I often passed the empty days without hope.
When I see some people enjoying with everything is a nice, everything that's more.
I just try and keep trying.
I want to close part when my tears that fall.
When I realized, I'm different. not is same like them.
Always try to stay away from they.
I feel it sometimes dark.
But the bright spot is always emerged when I resigned.
Sometimes like I'm has him but, he doesn't so understand me.
He could leave me, anytime.. 
everytime I learned to believe, but they are slowly going out of my life.
If just want to know my life.
I'm tell about survive, life, fighting.
All people tell that bad if together with me.
Handful who they say sometimes makes me afraid.
But why I never can running from my life.
I always hide anything experience that so hurt..